Hey guys so life is cluttered and busy for me right now, I have way too much on my plate because of school and my relationships with people around me. It's killing me slowly and I have to focus on school soall art that I owe people will be delayed for a long time. I hhave started most but most is just sketches and not even line art.
I'll still be on to check some messages, all RPS are on hold until I can get around to replying to them. I do like most of them I just don't have the time or the inspiration to reply with good responses.
Lately I haven't been feeling good, repulsed by how evil people can be to their friends and depression sneaking back in. I can only take so many rude people in one week. But I'm still stuck dealing with the same assholes every day at school and I'm growing tired of it to the point that I'm giving up on them and even some of my "friends". Their is only a select few I can safely say is a friend without any worry of them becoming some ego based beast who feeds on misery.
That sounded clechè(?). But its true, everyone at my school is a jackass. I hate them all, all of them. I tried to be nice but fuck it, its no longer worth the time or the effort. I just dont care anymore
Not only is school stressing but the fact that my boyfriend just cant seem to catch a break is killing me. It hurts to know that he's in pain and I can't do shit to help. im fucking useless and can't seem to find away to become useful. Its the worst feeling inthe world. Its just adding to my depression, I hate seeing him all sad or peeved. Nothing I say can help him. Im just sort of their. Useless.
Anyways, I just wanted to tell you guys why I'm so dead/pissy/sad lately(kind of) and that I will not be doing much for a while. I lack the will to drag myself out of this hole I dug, too tired.
I thank the few of you on here that have been a help and have been awesome to me. I do like you guys a lot and appreciate you too <3 Thanks again to you guys.
Listening to: Coldplay - Fix You
Drinking: Water, soda too.